December 2, 2006; 10:44 PM || Feeling nothing
Normally, I don't do these kind of things, but I figure, why not for once.
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Terra (online, real name is private)
Birthday: July 16, 1987
Birthplace: Dong Nai, Vietnam
Current Location: At home, my room
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Black
Height: 5'3"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right Handed
Heritage: Vietnamese (most likely with some French and Chinese also)
The Shoes You Wore Today: Barefoot
Weakness: Food, maybe
Fears: Pain, Rejection, Failure
Perfect Pizza: I don't like pizzas much
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Pass Organic Chemistry
Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: *poke*
Thoughts First Waking Up: Ugh... what time is it?
Best Physical Feature: No idea
Bedtime: Whenever I feel like it, midnight to 3AM usually
Most Missed Memory: No idea
Pepsi or Coke: Neither
McDonalds or Burger King: They're the same to me
Single or Group Dates: Either
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Same to me
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Eh...
Have you Been in Love: Don't think so
Are you a Health Freak: Not really
Ever been Drunk: Nope
Ever been called a Tease: Yes
Ever been Beaten up: Yes
Ever Shoplifted: Maybe
How do you want to Die: I don't plan that far ahead
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: No idea
What country would you most like to Visit: Japan
Do you...
Smoke: No
Swear: Rarely
Sing: Only when I'm alone in my car
Shower Daily: Yes
Want to go to College: Currrently attending
Want to get Married: Maybe
Believe in yourself: Yeah sure
Get Motion Sickness: Not that I know of
Think you are Attractive: No idea
Get along with your Parents: Yeah, sure
Like Thunderstorms: Yes
Play an Instrument: Played flute and piano
In the past month have you...
Drank Alcohol: Nope
Smoked: Nope
Been on Drugs: Nope
Gone on a Date: Not a real one
Gone to a Mall: Yes
Eaten a box of Oreos: Nope
Eaten Sushi: Yes
Been on Stage: Nope
Been Dumped: Nope
Gone Skinny Dipping: Nope
Stolen Anything: Nope
Number of...
Drugs taken: None
CDs owned: Two? Three?
Piercings: Two, one on each ear
Tattoos: None
Things in your past you regret: Too many to count
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Green
Favourite Hair Color: No preference
Short or Long Hair: As long as it looks good
Height: Preferably taller than me
Weight: Not extremely overweight
Best Clothing Style: Casual
Normally, I don't do these kind of things, but I figure, why not for once.
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Terra (online, real name is private)
Birthday: July 16, 1987
Birthplace: Dong Nai, Vietnam
Current Location: At home, my room
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Black
Height: 5'3"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right Handed
Heritage: Vietnamese (most likely with some French and Chinese also)
The Shoes You Wore Today: Barefoot
Weakness: Food, maybe
Fears: Pain, Rejection, Failure
Perfect Pizza: I don't like pizzas much
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Pass Organic Chemistry
Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: *poke*
Thoughts First Waking Up: Ugh... what time is it?
Best Physical Feature: No idea
Bedtime: Whenever I feel like it, midnight to 3AM usually
Most Missed Memory: No idea
Pepsi or Coke: Neither
McDonalds or Burger King: They're the same to me
Single or Group Dates: Either
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Same to me
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Eh...
Have you Been in Love: Don't think so
Are you a Health Freak: Not really
Ever been Drunk: Nope
Ever been called a Tease: Yes
Ever been Beaten up: Yes
Ever Shoplifted: Maybe
How do you want to Die: I don't plan that far ahead
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: No idea
What country would you most like to Visit: Japan
Do you...
Smoke: No
Swear: Rarely
Sing: Only when I'm alone in my car
Shower Daily: Yes
Want to go to College: Currrently attending
Want to get Married: Maybe
Believe in yourself: Yeah sure
Get Motion Sickness: Not that I know of
Think you are Attractive: No idea
Get along with your Parents: Yeah, sure
Like Thunderstorms: Yes
Play an Instrument: Played flute and piano
In the past month have you...
Drank Alcohol: Nope
Smoked: Nope
Been on Drugs: Nope
Gone on a Date: Not a real one
Gone to a Mall: Yes
Eaten a box of Oreos: Nope
Eaten Sushi: Yes
Been on Stage: Nope
Been Dumped: Nope
Gone Skinny Dipping: Nope
Stolen Anything: Nope
Number of...
Drugs taken: None
CDs owned: Two? Three?
Piercings: Two, one on each ear
Tattoos: None
Things in your past you regret: Too many to count
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Green
Favourite Hair Color: No preference
Short or Long Hair: As long as it looks good
Height: Preferably taller than me
Weight: Not extremely overweight
Best Clothing Style: Casual
If I could fall into the sky, Do you think time would pass me by?
September 24, 2006; 05:43 PM || Feeling hungry
School started again about a month ago. I can't believe one-third of the semester has gone by already. Before I know it, I'll be done with my second year in university, then I'll be a junior. Then that'll pass, and I'll already be a senior. Time sure does fly sometimes.
It was my 19th birthday over two months ago, even though it seemed not that long ago. It was on a Sunday. I spent it making fresh squeezed orange juice for my parents, then studying for my Biology exam (which I had the next day) all day. What a way to spend a day many people would spend celebrating. I don't know if I want to celebrate getting older, even though they say, "With age comes wisdom." Supposedly. That's not always true. As you grow up, you get more and more into the whole society thing. You forget to enjoy the little things in life. You worry more about paying bills and working. It makes me a bit melancholy to think that I'll be spending my life like that, to just repeat something over and over again, until I die.
However, I did get some nice "Happy Birthdays" from a few people. Thank you to those that did wish me a happy birthday. But the fact that I didn't celebrated it, and neither did my parents, who would usually take me (and my brothers on their birthdays) to go eat, as is the custom, makes me wonder if this is the point in my life where I stop celebrating and enjoying my personal holidays. Or am I worrying about something that I don't really need to be worrying about?
Sometimes I wonder if the world passes me by as I sit here doing nothing (thus the entry title, from Vanessa Carlton's A Thousand Miles). I don't go out much anyways, mainly because my parents think I will get kidnapped. But there's other things, like I don't have the money to. Well, ok, I do have some money, but I don't really want to spend it on just myself. I'd rather go out with someone else and spend it on them, or me and them. It's just more fun that way, because at the end of the day, if I spent it on only myself, I'd feel bad that I was being selfish. Not that being selfish is always a bad thing, sometimes you just got to do it just for yourself. Besides, I'm usually lazy to go out by myself, it's just not that fun.
But I get opposing opinions. There's some people that tells me I stay at home way too much, and that I should go out more. But there are other people, such as my school friends, who stays home just as much. I don't know, I'm easily swayed by other people's opinions, just because I try to make people happy. But I think I'll shut up here. Ta~!
/Fin.
School started again about a month ago. I can't believe one-third of the semester has gone by already. Before I know it, I'll be done with my second year in university, then I'll be a junior. Then that'll pass, and I'll already be a senior. Time sure does fly sometimes.
It was my 19th birthday over two months ago, even though it seemed not that long ago. It was on a Sunday. I spent it making fresh squeezed orange juice for my parents, then studying for my Biology exam (which I had the next day) all day. What a way to spend a day many people would spend celebrating. I don't know if I want to celebrate getting older, even though they say, "With age comes wisdom." Supposedly. That's not always true. As you grow up, you get more and more into the whole society thing. You forget to enjoy the little things in life. You worry more about paying bills and working. It makes me a bit melancholy to think that I'll be spending my life like that, to just repeat something over and over again, until I die.
However, I did get some nice "Happy Birthdays" from a few people. Thank you to those that did wish me a happy birthday. But the fact that I didn't celebrated it, and neither did my parents, who would usually take me (and my brothers on their birthdays) to go eat, as is the custom, makes me wonder if this is the point in my life where I stop celebrating and enjoying my personal holidays. Or am I worrying about something that I don't really need to be worrying about?
Sometimes I wonder if the world passes me by as I sit here doing nothing (thus the entry title, from Vanessa Carlton's A Thousand Miles). I don't go out much anyways, mainly because my parents think I will get kidnapped. But there's other things, like I don't have the money to. Well, ok, I do have some money, but I don't really want to spend it on just myself. I'd rather go out with someone else and spend it on them, or me and them. It's just more fun that way, because at the end of the day, if I spent it on only myself, I'd feel bad that I was being selfish. Not that being selfish is always a bad thing, sometimes you just got to do it just for yourself. Besides, I'm usually lazy to go out by myself, it's just not that fun.
But I get opposing opinions. There's some people that tells me I stay at home way too much, and that I should go out more. But there are other people, such as my school friends, who stays home just as much. I don't know, I'm easily swayed by other people's opinions, just because I try to make people happy. But I think I'll shut up here. Ta~!
/Fin.
If I just breathe, Let it fill the space between, I'll know everything is alright
September 23, 2006; 03:53 AM || Feeling nothing
So I'm at it again, staying up late for no apparent reason, that is. No, actually, I've been working on editing another layout (the one you are currently looking at) to fit into Tabulas. It's simple and pretty. It's unfortunate that I have forgotten most of my HTML.
I just got through my Calculus 3 and Organic Chemistry exam today. Calculus was earlier in the day, at noon. I thought I did fairly well on it, which gave me encouragement for my Organic Chemistry exam later in the day, at 7PM. Needless to say, I panicked when I got to the exam room anyways. Either way, I am quite drained. However, I've reached the point where I'm in a zombie-like state where I can stay up for long periods of time, and yet, pass out in an instant.
Instead of taking a break this weekend, I should work on homework. But honestly, I don't think that will happen. Maybe practice/memorize a song that I will play for my exam in Piano Class.
Just thought I'd mention that the snippet/title of this entry is from Michelle Branch's Breathe. I had more to say, but right now, I can't seem to remember what it was. Maybe another time. A month or so. Most likely more than that. Half a year sounds correct. Ta~!
/Fin.
So I'm at it again, staying up late for no apparent reason, that is. No, actually, I've been working on editing another layout (the one you are currently looking at) to fit into Tabulas. It's simple and pretty. It's unfortunate that I have forgotten most of my HTML.
I just got through my Calculus 3 and Organic Chemistry exam today. Calculus was earlier in the day, at noon. I thought I did fairly well on it, which gave me encouragement for my Organic Chemistry exam later in the day, at 7PM. Needless to say, I panicked when I got to the exam room anyways. Either way, I am quite drained. However, I've reached the point where I'm in a zombie-like state where I can stay up for long periods of time, and yet, pass out in an instant.
Instead of taking a break this weekend, I should work on homework. But honestly, I don't think that will happen. Maybe practice/memorize a song that I will play for my exam in Piano Class.
Just thought I'd mention that the snippet/title of this entry is from Michelle Branch's Breathe. I had more to say, but right now, I can't seem to remember what it was. Maybe another time. A month or so. Most likely more than that. Half a year sounds correct. Ta~!
/Fin.
With the birds I'll share this lonely view.
June 17, 2006; 02:10 AM || Feeling awake
New layout thing, even though I didn't design it myself. I was just surfing around and I saw this one. I liked it, so here it is. Took a little bit of time to edit it to fit into Tabulas and all, but it worked out in the end, at least, I hope so.
I was thinking about something, and I wanted to write it down, but I forgot what it was exactly. That sucks. Me being lazy sucks as well. Hopefully, I'll remember it eventually so I can write it down. Yay.
Three AM and I'm still up. I need to sleep more. People seem to get mad at me quite easily and about a lot of things, usually at small things too. It annoys me, and I in turn annoy them. I should elaborate, but maybe another time.
/Fin.
New layout thing, even though I didn't design it myself. I was just surfing around and I saw this one. I liked it, so here it is. Took a little bit of time to edit it to fit into Tabulas and all, but it worked out in the end, at least, I hope so.
I was thinking about something, and I wanted to write it down, but I forgot what it was exactly. That sucks. Me being lazy sucks as well. Hopefully, I'll remember it eventually so I can write it down. Yay.
Three AM and I'm still up. I need to sleep more. People seem to get mad at me quite easily and about a lot of things, usually at small things too. It annoys me, and I in turn annoy them. I should elaborate, but maybe another time.
/Fin.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried. I try but it shows.
May 3, 2006; 08:53 PM || Feeling blah
After a grueling two and a half hours of my Chemistry final, I went to two consecutive English review sessions, which lasted a total of four hours. Needless to say, I was tired. Oh, and hungry, let's not forget that. The second review was a bit pointless, but I guess it's better than nothing, so I shouldn't be complaining. There's going to be another English review tomorrow, wonderful.
Tomorrow is also my Psychology test number three and final. English final is on Friday, a little worried. Anywho, after I drive home, there's some guy that's been trimming my neighbor's trees, and he walks in front of my house, stops, looks at my roof and says hi to me as I was parking my car. I said hi back, but when I turned to go into my house, he got a peeved and said "Can i have a word with you please?" in a tone that irked me. So I went to him, and he's telling me he's there to trim trees and it looks like our trees could use some trimming too. I said I didn't know when my parents were going to be home, and he got all mad, and was like, "Why are people so afraid? All I want to do is trim trees." Gah, why does he have to get upset that I don't know? That really irritated me, for some reason.
I should learn to not let these little things get to me, but sometimes, I just can't help it. So my little brother comes to bother me, as always, when I go to my room. I'm always in the mood to be bothered and annoyed, always (end sarcasm)! It just gets so damn annoying after a while, he comes in here JUST to bother me, there's no other reason for him to be in my room. So when I snap at him, he's like, "Why are you so mean?" So being in a bad mood makes me a mean person. Wow, that's great isn't it? That's all I ever get from him whenever I'm not in a good mood. Maybe a "Are you ok?" or a "Are you in a bad mood?" would be more appropriate, rather than, "You're so mean." So I'm mean. Bite me (not literally).
Moving on, I have come to the conclusion that, humans in general, are stupid. No, it's not just the "men are stupid" or whatever the generalization or stereotype is. It applies to women too. I was on the phone with Jon last night, and we somehow got onto the topic of relationships, and he said that one of his past relationships left him very injured, basically. Now, he no longer respect women (depending on their attitude, he respects me because I'm "sweet" and we get along). He didn't elaborate, but of course, she did something horrible to him (namely, tore his "heart out and spat on it").
Ironically, the day before, there was a guest lecturer in my Psychology class (and I went to get extra credit) and he was talking about what attracted men and women, physically. For men, it's a certain body shape/proportion. But for women, well, women can't decide on what they want! He showed a chart of different body size proportions for males, and the girls couldn't pick out which they would prefer! I couldn't either, they all looked the same to me!
But back to my original point, if men can be generalized or stereotyped as stupid, so can women. Like Wollstonecraft argued, if men can reason, then why can't women? If men can be educated, then why can't women? So if men are idiots, why not women too? We don't know what we want, and in the case of my friend (who's a sweet guy) that girl had a good guy, only to turn him into a not-so-good guy. It's women like her that are always complaining that there's no more "good" men in the world, but it's her own fault that the world is like that! Well, not her specifically, but women like her in general. They wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't for the things women put them through. Same could go for guys, whatever, that's not what I'm ranting out. =) So in a way, we hurt ourselves through our indecision, like how if Hamlet had made up his mind to kill Claudius, there wouldn't have been as many deaths at the end of the play. Silly people, (yeah, that includes me too =D) fictional and non-fictional.
/Fin.
After a grueling two and a half hours of my Chemistry final, I went to two consecutive English review sessions, which lasted a total of four hours. Needless to say, I was tired. Oh, and hungry, let's not forget that. The second review was a bit pointless, but I guess it's better than nothing, so I shouldn't be complaining. There's going to be another English review tomorrow, wonderful.
Tomorrow is also my Psychology test number three and final. English final is on Friday, a little worried. Anywho, after I drive home, there's some guy that's been trimming my neighbor's trees, and he walks in front of my house, stops, looks at my roof and says hi to me as I was parking my car. I said hi back, but when I turned to go into my house, he got a peeved and said "Can i have a word with you please?" in a tone that irked me. So I went to him, and he's telling me he's there to trim trees and it looks like our trees could use some trimming too. I said I didn't know when my parents were going to be home, and he got all mad, and was like, "Why are people so afraid? All I want to do is trim trees." Gah, why does he have to get upset that I don't know? That really irritated me, for some reason.
I should learn to not let these little things get to me, but sometimes, I just can't help it. So my little brother comes to bother me, as always, when I go to my room. I'm always in the mood to be bothered and annoyed, always (end sarcasm)! It just gets so damn annoying after a while, he comes in here JUST to bother me, there's no other reason for him to be in my room. So when I snap at him, he's like, "Why are you so mean?" So being in a bad mood makes me a mean person. Wow, that's great isn't it? That's all I ever get from him whenever I'm not in a good mood. Maybe a "Are you ok?" or a "Are you in a bad mood?" would be more appropriate, rather than, "You're so mean." So I'm mean. Bite me (not literally).
Moving on, I have come to the conclusion that, humans in general, are stupid. No, it's not just the "men are stupid" or whatever the generalization or stereotype is. It applies to women too. I was on the phone with Jon last night, and we somehow got onto the topic of relationships, and he said that one of his past relationships left him very injured, basically. Now, he no longer respect women (depending on their attitude, he respects me because I'm "sweet" and we get along). He didn't elaborate, but of course, she did something horrible to him (namely, tore his "heart out and spat on it").
Ironically, the day before, there was a guest lecturer in my Psychology class (and I went to get extra credit) and he was talking about what attracted men and women, physically. For men, it's a certain body shape/proportion. But for women, well, women can't decide on what they want! He showed a chart of different body size proportions for males, and the girls couldn't pick out which they would prefer! I couldn't either, they all looked the same to me!
But back to my original point, if men can be generalized or stereotyped as stupid, so can women. Like Wollstonecraft argued, if men can reason, then why can't women? If men can be educated, then why can't women? So if men are idiots, why not women too? We don't know what we want, and in the case of my friend (who's a sweet guy) that girl had a good guy, only to turn him into a not-so-good guy. It's women like her that are always complaining that there's no more "good" men in the world, but it's her own fault that the world is like that! Well, not her specifically, but women like her in general. They wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't for the things women put them through. Same could go for guys, whatever, that's not what I'm ranting out. =) So in a way, we hurt ourselves through our indecision, like how if Hamlet had made up his mind to kill Claudius, there wouldn't have been as many deaths at the end of the play. Silly people, (yeah, that includes me too =D) fictional and non-fictional.
/Fin.
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